So the last few weeks have been a mix of incredible hope and excitement and downright depression. I have experienced this spectrum of emotions all too often in my last 3 years or so of freelancing. Like anything in life, freelancing has its pros and cons. The pros: I love getting to work on different types of projects with different groups of people (as I tend to get bored or restless working on the same thing for too long), I get to work on all aspects of video production, and constantly looking for the next gig is kind of exhilarating.
The cons: constantly looking for the next gig is exhausting. I'm not an impulsive person, nor do I like not knowing what will happen next in my life. I always tend to have a plan. So you can see why being a freelancer can be cause for anxiety for a person like me. At this point in my life, while I do genuinely enjoy freelancing, I'm realizing I'm not getting any younger, and would like to have some sort of stable income by the time I'm 30. Constantly worrying about finances in the back of your mind is a bit debilitating. However, I am proud to say that since I've been a freelancer, I've always made it work. I've never had to borrow money from anyone, and something always comes up. When you're desperate to pay rent, you start getting pretty ballsy in your career moves (nothing sexual or illicit, mind you).
The good news is I have two interviews lined up next week, and while they are by no means a dream job, they are something. My goal this year is to start cementing the building blocks of my career for years to come, so the thought of that is what gets me excited. Fingers crossed something good comes out of that! Otherwise, it's back to sending out dozens of résumés per week and hoping that someone bites back. But I'm hopeful!
Apart from that, I've been making the shot list for my next personal project and I'm not going to lie, it's the biggest undertaking I have ever set out to do. If it comes out half as cool as I'm imagining it, it will inspire a lot of people, which is my biggest goal. But more on that later! Right now I have to get ready to go to the biggest gay bar in all of Los Angeles for a friend's birthday. Happy Friday, everybody!
Song of the day: Tied Up (feat. DeJ Loaf) - Casey Veggies